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the hectic first day

2009-12-29T10:19:00.005+08:00

seem like everybody is writing about their first day of the new semester.
so i am going to write abt it too.

a typical first day of the new semester:

got up early at 6, i met with my course mates and friends, entered the classes, sometimes feel so bored in the classes, the lecturers are great but some are just boring to listen too, got so many books to buy, tough subjects to learn, went back early coz there are not so many classes to attend. blablalabla...

my first day of the new semester:

got up as early as 5.30 am, and then went off to 8am lecture and thank God, we were combined with fifa students making the class... i mean as ppl say it, the more the merrier kan? so, my schedule will be packed on mondays. the first class was ICT with sir azizi. hmm~ bolehla... at least he is not the super boring lecturer. huhu~ then i got language classes, both the teachers were the ones who taught me during my FIFA days. i guess they are okay. before the 2pm lecture, i went to bilik hukum (our operation room for jessup) to prepare for the training with sir aizu. yes, i got training on the first day... then, after fiqh ibadat lecture has ended, went to bilik hukum again and spent the rest of the day there until around 10 o clock. the training went fine i guess. for the first-timer, i did well. but to become a well-versed mooter, i was just too lousy.

never mind, it was the first time after all. the training hasnt officially started yet.
there is still a loooonnnngggg way to go.

so that was how my first day was like. xdela beza sgt pun but still, who else got presentation and training on their first day in new semester. mine was hectic, and i expect this is what i am going to encounter for the next 2 months... but as I think of it, the day that goes like this is more meaningful although at the end of the day, I feel so tired.

2010 message

2010-01-01T20:13:00.002+08:00

i opened my mailbox and read this message via facebook. a very special message from my dad. aaa~ ayah aku anta msg gune facebok kau. huhu~ i am so touched wpun ayat skema cket. after all, it was from my dad :) happy. happy.HAPPY.

Shahinan sent you a message.

Subject: Selamat Tahun Baru

"Assallamualaikum.Selamat tahun baru Hijrah 1431 dan tahun 2010. Belajarlah rajin-rajin semoga dapat menjadi orang yang berjaya di masa hadapan dan di akhirat. Jangan mudah percaya dengan orang yang tidak dikenali. Mohon selalu kepada Allah selepas solat semoga dijauhi daripada niat-niat orang yg berniat jahat. Jangan tinggal solat. Wassallam."

p/s: i wonder if my dad read this blog. ark!

i am sick

2009-12-25T21:54:00.002+08:00

huh~ tu la org kate. kita hanya menghargai sesuatu bile kita kehilangannya. i'm talking abt nikmat sihat yg selalu manusia lupa...

hari ni dah masuk hari ketiga i'm having diarrhea and nausea. dunno what went wrong. i ate the same thing with others. but they didnt get sick. huhu~ i wanted to eat but I have no appetite especially during day time. Even if I ate sth, I would throw up after. Cant eat the medicine well coz it requires me to eat sth before taking the meds. I hv to take them 3 times daily, but it is impossible to make me eat three times per day now.

Huuuuuu.... I think Im getting quite dehydrated.

first sem result

2009-12-23T19:34:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah, the result has came out today. And no, I didnt obtain 4.00. I think it would be almost impossible to get a perfect result. We thought it will only be released tomorrow. I wasnt that anticipated to know the result. Either because I am too busy with jessup preparation, or because I was thinking that the result would be disappointing. So, I refused to think about it.

Tapi, alhamdulillah, I have never so far disappoint my dad. Thinking that he has done a lot of things up till now, till I get into the university, making him proud is my concern.

Pendek je post ni~ (>.<)

i don't care much

2009-12-18T14:25:00.003+08:00

currently staying at kak hajar's house, she's my senior. mcm la korg nak tau sgt psl i kan? *gedik tetibe* haha~ maaflah ye.

and yes, i am having my holiday... well, if simply having no lectures or tutorial classes but having sth else to commit to is still considered as a holiday. still working on for the competition anyway walaupon not as hard as everybody else. that sucks for a mooter. *ketuk kepala sendiri*. it wont be over until next february. and no, i am not complaining abt it despite knowing that im not going back to kuching for the next 7 months and might be really distressed after the second sem starts.

because i love doing what i am doing although i might be feeling down once in a while...
after all, i came here to study, not to enjoy myself right?
bukanla nak kate as a student i cannot enjoy myself, but there are limitations to that.
Allah pun x bagi kt enjoy 24 jam kan? whether you're a student or not.

So, I shouldnt care much about not having much time to slob around like everybody else is doing.

cuba teka

2009-12-15T18:41:00.003+08:00

ada satu benda ni, tak semua org ada, tapi ramai org nak.

ada satu benda ni, mula-mula mmg best, tapi bila dah xde, mmg rasa sakit ati.

ada satu benda ni, org kata susah sgt nak lupa kalau dah xde.

ada satu benda ni, org kata fitrah, xleh nak elak.

ada satu benda ni, mmg blh buat org lupa kat bnd2 lain, tp kita x perasan.

ada satu benda ni, kalau tak menyusahkan hidup mmg tak sah, tapi org nak jugak.

ada satu benda ni, bukan menyusahkan hidup sendiri je, tapi menyusahkan hidup org lain jugak.

ada satu benda ni, blh jadi semua yg salah jd betul.

cube teka, apa benda ni?

*post merepek.

mereka juga berjaya (updated)

2009-12-13T14:28:00.006+08:00

alhamdulillah, IHL pun dah selamat melabuhkan tirainya hari ini. wah~ ayat skema jap.

dan alhamdulillah, mereka juga berjaya. congratulations and well done to all of the IHLians. i went to watch their performance yesterday, it was my second time watching the real mooting competition. i would say that they have done their best. and they did it well. as far as what i have been informed by Sarah, the applicant side made it to the third place. cuma nasib x menyebelahi pihak responden. but then again, they didnt end to be at the last place. that's good enough to hear...

and good enough to make us proud and make it as a challenge for us to do our best as well in the upcoming Philip C Jessup International Law Moot Court Competition. hopefully, the same happy ending will follow us too. Amin~ tawakkalna alallah*.

*tawakkal kena ada usaha dan doa...

right now, i'm waiting for the result of syariah moot competition.
would usim teams make it to the top? i hope so.

update:
congratulations to usim's syariah mooting team who made it to the first place despite usim being accused for being biased since our university is the host for this competition. we still win afterall so well done!!

Mari martabatkan UNIVERSITI ISLAM
dan pelajar-pelajar ISLAM.
May ALLAH bless all of us.

p/s: Now, it's the Jessupers' turn... cuak. sgt. sgt.

i need to hold on

2009-12-11T20:42:00.006+08:00

it feels so hard ;

when things are easy said than done

when loneliness becomes unbearable

when positive thinking seems impossible

when you want to talk to somebody,
share your problems with somebody, but giving it a
second thought, knowing that they can only listen
but could not erase the sadness away

when you seem to lose all the motivation, your spirits started to sink
and your determination began to dissolve in your negative mind

when there are ppl counting on you
but you are just not that strong, or smart enough to handle it.

these are the times when ~~crying~~ makes you feel better.
I need to hold on.... and be stronger
and carry on with what I'm doing.

“If God sends us on strong paths, we are provided strong shoes.”

mereka berjaya

2009-12-10T07:20:00.003+08:00

"Universiti Sains Islam Malaysia (USIM) mencatat sejarah tersendiri apabila buat julung-julung kalinya muncul juara Pertandingan Debat Diraja IPT 2009 dalam dua kategori iaitu Johan Debat Bahasa Arab kategori Utama dan Johan Debat Bahasa Melayu Kategori Muda dalam tempoh 10 tahun penubuhan USIM." Quoted from USIM Web Page.

"Selain kejuaraan berganda itu, prestasi pasukan USIM kali ini turut meningkat apabila empat pendebat berjaya menduduki sepuluh pendebat terbaik keseluruhan dalam kategori Bahasa Arab, manakala bagi kategori Bahasa Melayu, tiga pendebat USIM turut menduduki carta sepuluh terbaik." Quoted from usimkini.blogspot.com

Alhamdulillah, bangga jugak tgk rakan seperjuangan berjaya, terutama rakan-rakan dari batch First Year. Tapi....

mereka dah berjaya, USIM mooting teams, bila lagi?
*termangu seketika*
renung-renungkan, dan selamat berlatih!!

p/s: buat masa ni, ada 5 mooting teams yg tgh menunggu masa, 3 kumpulan mut syariah (competing this weekend), 1 kumpulan IHL mooting (competing this weekend too), 1 kumpulan jessup mooting (competing early next year).

live like we're dying

2009-12-10T00:22:00.003+08:00

originally, this is a song from The Script.
Kris Allen only made another (read: same) version of it.

Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up
we're hiding behind skin that's too tough
how come we don't say I love you enough
till it's to late, it's not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
we could make a feast from these crumbs
and we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
so if your life flashed before you
what would you wish you would've done

Yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

And if your plane fell out of the skies
who would you call with your last goodbyes
should be so careful who we live out our lives
so when we long for absolution
there'll no one on the line

Yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying oh-- like we're dying [x2]

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live -- like we're dying

We never know a good thing till it's gone
you never see a crash until it's head on
all those people right when we're dead wrong
you never know a good thing till it's gone

Yeah... gotta start
lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
this is all we got and we gotta start livin it
every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying

Like we're dying oh -- like we're dying [x2]

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
while we got the chance to say
gotta live like we're dying
live like we're dying

p/s: lamak dah sik post benda cam tok. trying not to stress out myself.

4 days' gone by

2009-11-29T15:25:00.006+08:00

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25 nov, taken a flight to kuching. my flight was delayed for 30 minutes. well, that's nothing unusual for "sistem penerbangan tambang rendah terbaik di dunia" - or better known as AIR ASIA. i wonder how other low-cost airline systems would be like. i mean, ironically,"terbaik di dunia" seems like the worst to me. never been punctual, the plane engine makes noise during the take-off and landing, the flight attendants look so gloomy and as if they are screaming, "i want to quit this job!! get me out of here!!". huh~ ape2 pun, terima kasih air asia krn telah membawa saya kembali ke kuching - dengan selamat.

26 nov, went to bank islam to bank in some money to kak irah to buy me a jacket.after that, i helped my mom prparing for tomorrow's eidul adha feast. tolong kupas bawang pun kire helping la kan?? then, went to kak ros' house to get a hair cut - at last - and buy lemang.

27 nov, for the first time rase hari raya eidul adha yg agak meriah. my sisters came with their children to have a feast at our house like what we usually did during eidulfitri. only my bro and kak malin werent at home. they celebrated hari raya in mukah coz nak save cuti. so nanti kak malin dah nak bersalin, boleh cuti lama cket. and then, a number of relatives came for a visit. maybe because my mom was going to kl for an operation - supposedly - so they came to see my mom for the last time before she left kuching. but apparently, the operation was postponed until next month. quite tired that day, but still couldnt miss out from watching the last episode of nur kasih at night. waa~ dah abis dah. but then, tak effect sgt la ending dye. mcm tergesa2 nak abiskan je. tp menitis gakla my precious tears waktu last scene between adam and aidil.

28 nov, had a chat with aisyah yang x tau sy dah balek. so, we decided to go out with azzah that day, since i was going back the day after. without any plan, we went to the spring in the evening. had dinner with aisyah's family and strolled around the spring. waaa~ really miss hanging out with them..

29 nov, hah~ need to go back to nilai already. one good thing about spending a short time in kuching is that it makes me less reluctant to go back to nilai. and now, here i am, typing this post in my room. nobody's here. waa~ ngantuk suda. tidur dulu tah aku.

aisyah, azzah n me :) love u girls.

jessup mooting#2

2009-11-23T21:08:00.002+08:00

just came back from iium. got to find books and other resources for the mooting competition. why didnt we do our research in usim library? FORGET IT. you’ll only find empty book shelves *exaggeration*. since usim is newly established university, so there are only limited numbers of useful books. so, in order to complete our assignments, and in our situation, to do our research, we need to go to other libraries. i went to perpustakaan muzium negara, national library and pustaka negeri just to finish up my ethnic relation assignment. huhu~ for the jessup competition research, we need to go to iium, ukm libraries.

tiring... but thank God, we are given allowance money.
yeay!! money! tak banyak pun, but it’s better than nothing.

so, today’s research was going well for me. i am not sure abt others. it’s not that i already had all the arguments in mind but at least, i’ve got a little idea of what i should do and search for. this might not sound too good for you, but i feel ok about it. i believe we have found some strong arguments for my side, plus, my negative and pessimistic mind has also been defeated... walaupun tadi agak blur waktu mula2 sampai kat library uia tu (maklumla, malaysian legal system pun tak habis study lagi, tibe2 kena buat research on public international law), i was able to catch up.

ok, ngantuk dah....

jessup mooting#1

2009-11-22T08:47:00.003+08:00

yesterday, we have started the research. well, not really for me. but, the materials had been distributed. and yesterday, i got bad news that sarajuuz n kak irma have withdrawn from the team. sarajuuz has been replaced with kak maisara. but nobody replace kak irma, who was supposed to be my partner. i was feeling quite stressed yesterday because my negative mind says this thing is geting tougher and i couldnt bear with it. usually, i would sleep a lot if im stressed - a bad habit of mine - and yes, i had been sleeping for hours to 'ease the tension'.

huh~ there is sth wrong with me and i know what it is - im thinking negatively. wake up syu!!

this morning, kak tika told me that she had found kak aisyah to replace kak irma. that's quite a good news to begin my morning with. *smile* although i realize the fact that i should not depend on others too much and this kak aisyah, too, might probably withdraw herself from the team. i wouldnt put my hopes too high then.

shall continue with my reading :)
*positive*positive*positive*positive*positive*

hari ini

2009-11-18T15:02:00.003+08:00

hari ini sy tinggal sorang2 kat hostel. semua housemates sy dah balik.

hari ini last paper for my exam. malaysian legal system. quite tough. but i think i could answer more confidently than madkhal paper. quite happy.

hari ini rancang lepas exam nak hang out and shopping kat mines. tapi x jadi sbb org kate kat sane x ade sgt bnd yg kitorng nak carik. pastu kire nak g metro kajang. tapi tak jadi sbb bdk2 ihl ade perjumpaan mlm ni. pastu kire nak g ice room. tapi x jadi sbb org kate tmpt tu xde sijil halal lagi. pastu sy pun balik rumah.

hari ini sgt sunyi. tadi kat stadium pun tak penuh. balik hostel semua gerai makanan x bukak. kedai pun tak bukak. xde orang. sunyi sgt dan lapar sbb x makan nasik lagi. nak makan mi pun water heater xde. nak pegi umah sarah, hujan lebat sgt. nak tidur, tapi ade kilat dgn guruh.

hari ini sepatutnye sy dah boleh balik kuching tapi sy ade tggungjawab lain.

hari ini adalah hari2 yang sy dah biase lalui, knp masih rs sedih eh? sepatutnya sy jd lebih dewasa bila dah start berdikari. ive been through this.. sepatutnya sy jd lebih kuat. knp sy jd makin lemah???

madkhal

2009-11-16T13:34:00.002+08:00

everything didnt go well for me today.
that will explain how i felt after sitting for madkhal paper just now.

*funny, its raining now*

...preparing for the worst.

facebook dan yahudi

2009-11-16T13:15:00.002+08:00

Dalam sentimen kemarahan kita terhadap apa yang menimpa umat Islam di bumi Palestin, kemahuan untuk melakukan sesuatu yang berbalut emosi sering membuatkan kita keterlaluan dalam tindakan.

Suatu ketika, kempen boikot berlangsung secara aktif. Senarai panjang barangan dan perkhidmatan disebarkan untuk diboikot. Masyarakat terbahagi kepada beberapa kelompok dalam hal ini. Ada yang menolak sepenuhnya tindakan boikot, ada yang bertindak memboikot sepenuhnya apa sahaja yang berkaitan dengan Yahudi dan Amerika Syarikat, dan di celah kedua-dua aliran itu, ada yang bertindak memboikot secara selektif.

Tindakan memboikot secara selektif ini didorong oleh kesedaran bahawa mengharamkan secara mutlak urusniaga yang membabitkan Yahudi atau Nasrani semata-mata kerana dia itu Yahudi atau Nasrani, adalah suatu tindakan yang tidak menepati kehendak Syara’.

Di dalam Majalah al-Islam keluaran September 2009, terdapat sebuah artikel yang tajuknya amat serius berbunyi, “ZUCKERBERG GUNA FACEBOOK UNTUK BUNUH PENDUDUK PALESTIN”.

Apa yang tidak wajar berlaku ialah, makalah tersebut hanya mendedahkan aktiviti biasa pengasas Facebook, Mark Zuckerberg, sebagai seorang Yahudi yang ‘multazim’ (mempraktikkan agama Yahudi dalam kehidupan seharian). Tetapi justifikasi terhadap kebenaran dakwaan bahawa Zuckerberg menggunakan Facebook untuk membunuh penduduk Palestin, hanya ditulis dalam sebuah perenggan ringkas berbunyi:

“… Pun begitu sebelum pengharaman oleh dua buah negara tersebut dibuat, wujud desas-desus yang mengaitkan penglibatan laman web tersebut dalam membiayai peperangan di Gaza”

Itu sahaja kenyataan yang wujud di sepanjang artikel berkenaan dalam mengaitkan Facebook dengan jenayah perang di Palestin. Ada pun isi kandungan lain, kesemuanya menceritakan tentang betapa Yahudinya seorang anak muda bernama Mark Zuckerberg, sesuatu yang tidak pernah diputuskan oleh Islam sebagai sebab untuk produk atau perkhidmatannya diharamkan.

ASAL KEHARUSAN MUAMALAH BERSAMA YAHUDI

Terdapat begitu banyak keterangan daripada Sunnah bahawa berurusniaga dengan kaum Musyrikin dan Yahudi itu adalah harus. Misalnya di dalam sepotong hadith:

“Sesungguhnya Nabi sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam membeli makanan daripada seorang Yahudi dengan pembayaran secara bertangguh dan mencagarkan baju besi baginda sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam.” [Hadith riwayat al-Bukhari nombor 2326, 2/841]

Al-Imam al-Bukhari juga memberikan tajuk kepada salah satu bab di dalam Sahih beliau, yang mendatangkan hadith di atas sebagai, “BAB BERJUAL BELI DENGAN KAUM MUSYRIK DAN YAHUDI”.

Dalam mengulas hal ini, al-Imam al-Nawawi membuat kesimpulannya di dalam syarahan beliau kepada Sahih Muslim dengan berkata:

“Telah ijma’ seluruh umat Islam pada keharusan urusan dengan Ahli Zimmah dan lain-lain orang Kafir selagi mana urus niaga itu tidak jatuh di dalam perkara yang haram. Akan tetapi umat Islam tidak boleh ( haram) menjual senjata kepada musuh Islam yang sedang memerangi Islam, dan tidak boleh juga membantu mereka dalam menegakkan agama mereka” [Sharah Sahih Muslim oleh al-Nawawi, 11/40]

Keharusan ini hanya berubah dengan adanya dalil lain yang mengubah keharusan itu, atau berlakunya sesuatu yang mengubah konteks hadith ini. Di dalam kes Facebook, adalah sangat penting untuk didatangkan bukti bahawa Mack Zuckerberg membiayai regim Zionis di Palestin, dan artikel di Majalah al-Islam September 2009 itu gagal mendatangkannya.

Di hujung artikel tersebut, satu lagi dakwaan dibuat pada menyatakan bahawa, “dengan klik sahaja pada Facebook kita juga turut sama menjadi pembunuh orang Palestin di Gaza“

Namun sama juga seperti sebelumnya, tiada sebarang bukti diketengahkan pada menunjukkan bagaimanakah penjanaan keuntungan Facebook disalurkan kepada regim Zionis yang menjajah bumi Palestin”.

Kita tidak mahu wujudnya satu budaya paranoid umat Islam yang melatah dengan mudah tatkala didatangi oleh kenyataan-kenyataan seperti ini. Orang Islam sangat cepat dimanipulasi sebagai agen merosakkan produk dan perkhidmatan melalui penyebaran email yang mendakwa ada benda tidak halal, ada campuran beracun dan lain-lain yang mana sebahagaiannya adalah palsu. Ia hanya membuktikan bahawa orang Islam banyak kerisauan tetapi tidak banyak berusaha untuk menyelidik bagi menghilangkan kerisauan tersebut.

Islam tidak pernah mengharamkan Muslim membeli atau menggunakan apa-apa produk dan perkhidmatan daripada non Muslim termasuk Yahudi. Mengharamkan pembelian atau penggunaan sesuatu produk atau perkhidmatan hanya dengan alasan ia milik Yahudi, boleh mengheret kita terjebak kepada perbuatan MENGHARAMKAN APA YANG HALAL, yang mana perbuatan itu sama buruknya dengan MENGHALALKAN APA YANG HARAM.

Malah perbuatan anti Yahudi secara semberono begitu adalah bersifat perkauman yang dibenci oleh Islam.

Facebook terbuka sebagai satu ruang untuk dimanfaatkan sebagai medium perhubungan dan penyebaran maklumat. Ia boleh berfungsi sebagai alat dakwah serta penyebaran maklumat, sebagaimana ia juga boleh berfungsi sebagai alat pemasaran. Seandainya di Facebook ada kempen yang memburuk-burukkan Islam, maka gunakanlah ruang yang ada untuk kempen memburuk-burukkan Islam itu ditukar kepada suatu bentuk promosi yang menimbulkan rasa ingin tahu manusia kepada Islam, seperti yang banyak berlaku pasca 11 September 2001.

Namun, jika umat Islam menghabiskan masa di Facebook dengan aplikasi yang melalaikan tanpa sebarang tujuan, penggunaan Facebook boleh menjadi haram ke atas golongan seperti ini, sama seperti pembabitannya dalam aktiviti kosong yang lain.

adapted from http://bintuzubair.blogspot.com/

too pink? (updated)

2009-11-13T14:17:00.005+08:00

changed my layout (obviously) despite knowing that i have another two more papers, malaysian legal system 1 and المدخل إلى دراسة الشريعة next week which i know will never be easy. its ok. insyaAllah, i still have enough time to revise.

perhaps this layout is too pink? nvm, the background can always be changed like i always did since i'm using the css template again. i hope the designer wont mind coz i changed and added up so many features and i am about to add more... she gets the credit anyway. below is the actual design.

keluar topik jap.
last night i was in deep and sound sleep until i couldnt even realize the announcements made at around 3am (source:aisyah) ordering us to shut all the windows and doors. kak alep told us that a stranger wearing kain pelikat (?? that is the only information i got..huhu~) entered the hostel compound last night.. scarryy. my peaceful life is being interrupted. what i'm worried about is the fact that i did not hear anything when i was sleeping last night... ni kalau gempa bumi pun tak sedar kot.. naudzubillah...

waaa~ takot. dahla 25nov bru balik kuching. hopefully pas exam nanti blh duduk kat acacia utk mooting practice. ngaaaaaaa~

update: sumber terbaru, rupenye lelaki tu masuk hostel pi tunjuk dye punye..... private part kat akak senior-sbb dye smpt melawat blok senior je. *pengsan beramai-ramai. erk!* gila seks betul!!! plus psycho! naudzubillah...

bongkak.riak.takbur.

2009-11-14T01:38:00.002+08:00

sekadar muhasabah diri sebelum tidur.

ampunkan aku ya Allah. aku tahu aku tak layak untuk bangga dengan diri.
aku tak layak untuk bermegah dengan kejayaan aku dan memandang rendah
orang lain. sungguh aku tak layak. benar-benar tak layak. sangat tak layak.

ampunkan aku ya Allah. aku bongkak. aku riak. aku takbur.
sedangkan aku bukanlah sehebat manusia apatah lagi sehebat MU,

aku rasa tak ada satu kejayaan pun datang dari usaha aku sendiri.
semua datang daripada Mu. but still, I always forget You. Always.
I did nothing much for You although I know You have nothing to lose
even if I didnt.

ampunkan aku ya Allah.
banyak sgt dosa aku pada Mu.
as if my heart had no place for You.

:::mathematical wonder:::

2009-11-10T08:34:00.002+08:00

Just to share sth before i sit for my next paper, arabic 2. Take a look.

1 x 8 + 1 = 9
12 x 8 + 2 = 98
123 x 8 + 3 = 987
1234 x 8 + 4 = 9876
12345 x 8 + 5 = 98765
123456 x 8 + 6 = 987654
1234567 x 8 + 7 = 9876543
12345678 x 8 + 8 = 98765432
123456789 x 8 + 9 = 987654321

1 x 9 + 2 = 11
12 x 9 + 3 = 111
123 x 9 + 4 = 1111
1234 x 9 + 5 = 11111
12345 x 9 + 6 = 111111
123456 x 9 + 7 = 1111111
1234567 x 9 + 8 = 11111111
12345678 x 9 + 9 = 111111111
123456789 x 9 +10= 1111111111

9 x 9 + 7 = 88
98 x 9 + 6 = 888
987 x 9 + 5 = 8888
9876 x 9 + 4 = 88888
98765 x 9 + 3 = 888888
987654 x 9 + 2 = 8888888
9876543 x 9 + 1 = 88888888
98765432 x 9 + 0 = 888888888

And look at this symmetry:

1 x 1 = 1
11 x 11 = 121
111 x 111 = 12321
1111 x 1111 = 1234321
11111 x 11111 = 123454321
111111 x 111111 = 12345654321
1111111 x 1111111 = 1234567654321
11111111 x 11111111 = 123456787654321
111111111 x 111111111 = 12345678987654321

Now, take a look at this...
From a strictly mathematical viewpoint:

What equals to 100%?
What does it mean to give MORE than 100%?

Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%?

We have all been in situations where someone wants you to
GIVE OVER 100%.

How about ACHIEVING 101%?

What equals to 100% in life and what equals to 101%?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help
answer these questions:

If:

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Is represented as:

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

If:

H-A-R-D-W-O- R- K

8+1+18+4+23+ 15+18+11 = 98%

And:

K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E

11+14+15+23+ 12+5+4+7+ 5 = 96%

But:

A-T-T-I-T-U- D-E

1+20+20+9+20+ 21+4+5 = 100%

THEN, look how far the love of God will take you:

L-O-V-E-O-F- G-O-D

12+15+22+5+15+ 6+7+15+4 = 101%

Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that:

While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will
get you there, It's the Love of God that will put you over the top!

:::exam time:::

2009-11-03T09:10:00.004+08:00

"dont pray to Allah for a lighter load

but pray to Him for a stronger back"

GooD LucK EveryBODY!!

and go get some sleep

p/s: just for clarification. post kt bwh ni dlm kategori merepek je eh.

:::close:::

2009-10-30T09:14:00.007+08:00

i know that closeness in a relationship really matters to some people - be it family relationship or relationship between friends etc. but can we actually retain the closeness that we might once feel forever? It is not impossible in real life, but i would say that it is rather difficult. Through my experience, it is almost impossible and i have decided not to be bothered and weep over it.

My life keeps moving on from a phase to another. I believe nobody would have experienced the same phase of life until his last breath. Of course, this will bring changes to your life and the people around you will not be the same people that you used to meet everyday.

For one long period, you might be clinging to a group of friends and you would have grown fond of them and at that point of time, you would feel like there were nothing that could tear you apart and this is the time when the phrase "Friends Forever" became some sort of a chain that links you together. Hugging, teasing each other, giving advice, sharing problems, talking about love crushes and hanging out became part and parcel of your friendship which created the closeness among you and your friends.

But then, life never stayed as it was and started to change and it built a growing distance which brought you apart from the ones whom you once cheerfully called friends, snatching away the closeness. And in your current phase of life, strangers are becoming your new friend and your friends are becoming more or less like strangers.

As people say life is a circle, it now turns around again and the strangers who had become your friends become strangers once again. That's how it is. You might still be friends since you are still holding on to the phrase "Friends Forever" but the closeness, either you realize it or not, has diminished. It just happen. It's normal. Nobody should be blamed.

and that is why i refuse to weep over it because i have a life to catch up with and a future to create. i am not saying that i want to forget all my old friends. no way, they are so important to me. i am just saying that it is ok to reminisce some sweet memories because it will put a smile onto your lips. But hoping the memories to become a real thing once again is pointless. Memories only belong to the past. and the past will remain in the past.

::unknown::::

2009-11-01T20:22:00.002+08:00

bungaisyah

♥ HJ ♥

baihumaira

♥ ZK ♥

farahin

♥ IH ♥

ili

♥ ZK ♥

nsdahlia

♥ IZ ♥

p/s: haha~

:::annoyed:::

2009-10-17T22:08:00.002+08:00

lately, my life has been very occupied with different things to do - presentations, assignments, mooting and choir. Some of them are individual tasks and some others are group tasks. so, when it comes to a group task, full commitment is a priority.

i was quite pissed off recently when some of my grp members - be it presentations, assignments, or choir - simply decided to go back home when they are needed the most. seriously, this annoys me a lot! but then again, i cannot set others' first priority. i am not in the position to interfere with their personal lives. i have no right to say wht they should do and what they shouldnt. i cannot simply abstain them from doing things that i dislike.

perhaps, they have sth else that is more important. sorry to those who feel offended with what i wrote and what i said... im trying to understand.

:::i want to IMPROVE:::

2009-10-12T08:44:00.004+08:00

so, the programme ended yesterday at around 7 pm. it was quite late and i felt so tired.... and sad. i went back with a certificate and shame. at the end of the day, no matter how ppl look up on me and how good they think i am, i never think so. i am just an average person, i make mistakes a lot and i wasnt at my best level all the time.

what makes me feel sad yesterday, apart from leaving the nice bedroom (heee~), was my failure to show my best. we had a mooting practice yesterday with one of the speakers and i felt down because i was incapable of presenting my arguments on the case given. i could not even answer the simple questions the speakers were asking. it was a great shame for a law student. it was as if i do not know anything about the basics of law. it was as if i never learn this subject. it was disappointing when i feel that i am so stupid and that brought me to tears. yes, i cried after giving my short and pointless oral submission. childish... i know.

as disappointing as it was, it was not enough to make me give up mooting. up till now, i still do not think that i am qualified to become a mooter, but i want to improve myself till i reach that level. i have to work hard for that - by not letting go the opportunity.

and i also have to work hard to prove to myself that it was never a mistake when i decided to take this course at this university. i have been too ignorant, but now, although it is already too late, i have to start working harder. it is a cliche to say that it is better late than never, but afterall, it is true.

even though many of us think that we should work smart, not work hard. but i will take a different view. we have to work hard in a smart way and that is what i need to do, beginning from now.

I MUST...

as we grow older, the room for improvement becomes bigger :)

:::how i WISH:::

2009-10-11T01:57:00.008+08:00

blogging from ukm :)
we are having two-day programme called junior paralegal certificate programme, being held in ukm.. so all potential usim mooters are asked to attend. since it’s a two-day programme so we have to stay here. and what i could say is.. how I WISH i can stay here longer or... I WISH my bedroom can be as nice as the room i am staying in now. it is so comfy... aahhh~~

single bed.. so that i can study on it.
air-conditioner.. which will make me feel refreshed
after the tiring lectures and bus rides

a huge closet... to put all my stuff.. begs, clothes, etc
(which are now under the bed, beside the table, beside the locker,
on top of the locker, everywhere!!)

the table is so spacious that i can put my printer
and my laptop and my books

ermm, maybe it's too much to have a tv.. too much distraction.
cheh.. cam baek je... jauh di lubuk hati, nak jugak ade tv cam
budak2 pandan mewah.

tapi, takpela... tu cume angan-angan... anyway, the whole programme so far is okay to me. the things learnt in the lectures and workshops werent so heavy for us to bear with. so i learnt new things a lot and managed to revise things that i have learnt during my matriculation. among the topics covered are regarding criminal law, family law, mooting, legal research and client counseling. most of the speakers that came today managed to attract my attention. i can say that because i didnt fall asleep since the first word came out from their mouth. well, i cant be sure for tomorrow. it’s almost 2 a.m. already and i’m still stuck in front of my laptop. the room is so lovely that i dont want to stop staring at it and enjoying its comfort for tonight. aahhh~~ (ada agik cita hal bilit tok)

hopefully, i can still ‘survive’ for tomorrow’s sessions... now, i have to continue doing my slides for ethnic relation presentation.